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Take the Good, Take the Bad

9/23/2015

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I fidgeted in that cluttered office on a rainy day, unsure what to do with my hands. My first parent-teacher conference had me tied up in knots. I have always assumed “please come see me” or “we need to talk later” or “Christina, it’s time for your performance evaluation,” means I’m in trouble. This tendency might be worth delving into this at some point, because I have rarely gotten in much trouble and my performance evaluations have almost always been positive. Heaven help me the first time I get called to the principal’s office to collect a child. My time is definitely coming.

So as I sat, prepared to discuss my four-year-old, Mirabella, my bright but emotional, sensitive child, I worried. They told me about her school persona; mostly they talked about her strengths.

“When she meets a challenge,” I said, “she throws a fit.”

“We’ve seen a little of that too,” Clare, one of her teachers, said, “but the other side of that is that she is determined. She is persistent; we have not seen her give up until she gets it right. That will serve her so well later in life.” I paused. This had not occurred to me.

“We’re struggling at home,” I confided, “because she is volatile. We are working on reigning in her emotions, but she is very sensitive and loses control easily.”

“She is very sensitive,” Clare agreed, “and I can understand how that is challenging at home. But there is a positive side to that trait. Here at school, we might see it more than you do. She is incredibly empathetic. She notices when other children feel outside the circle, and she seeks them out. She relates their feelings to her own experience, and she works  to draw them back in. It might be difficult now, but it will be invaluable in her life; it’s the kind of thing we struggle to teach, and it comes naturally to her.”

I blinked back tears. Until that moment, I’m not sure it had  occurred to me that my children’s behavior was anything other than that: behavior to be guided, shaped, corrected. I had never considered that it was something more, that their behavior was a reflection of who they were. For the first time I realized I might often do better ruminating on the whole of their traits and their implications, then helping my children harness the power of their tendencies for good.

That sensitive four-year-old is now seven and three quarters. She worked all summer to perfect her splits for ballet this fall. She is trying to learn Danish phrases to reach out to the new student in her class who doesn’t speak any English. She cried while telling me she didn’t win Student Council representative for her class.  She is still sensitive and determined, bright and empathetic, and I’m already starting to see the benefits of acknowledging who she is and helping her learn to work with her traits rather than “correcting” them.

PictureThe books my children chose at the library, Emerie and Mirabella, respectively
Our Emerie is another story altogether. Since she became a middle child, things have changed, and many not for the better. She is hot-tempered; she can be mean; she is often sure she is getting the raw end of any deal. But she is soulful, funny and wise, and she is listening. Almost daily, she delivers a tightly-packaged discussion on some deep topic she’s been processing. Yesterday it was the importance of allowing ourselves to learn at our own pace (like in “kwae tron do”) and how God is actually made up of Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and Love. Because, “of course, God is love.” She has come home and fallen into my arms to cry about inadvertently hurting  a classmate earlier in the day. She struggles with anger and she draws me pictures of her feelings, sometimes under a thunder storm, but lately she has been drawing people standing in the sunshine. “I want to tell you how I think I can get into the sunshine,” she said, “and I think it’s by talking about my feelings.”

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Living with our people can be so hard. Choosing to love them each day, choosing to see who they really are and not only their behavior can be a challenge. But watching Mirabella blossom gives me hope for Emerie and Deacon and myself. We are all more than the sum of our traits, of course, and there are always negative aspects to the parts we treasure. I am introspective and honest; I can be distant and harsh. My husband is capable of laser focus to get things done; he can be myopic sometimes. If we benefit from the positives, if we were drawn to them in the first place, it would be unfair to penalize our loved ones for the negative aspects of those same traits. 

I’m working to look for the good and find a way to shine a brighter light on it, and instead of correcting the bad, looking for ways to help my children cope with the repercussions. 

What negative trait do you see in your child that may actually serve them well? What tools can you give them now to help them use it for good?

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